A few thoughts

I have been doing alot of thinking recently. I am just bothered by the way everything is going lately. They way we treat each other. And call each other names and are just so callous. I of all people am guilty of these very things. Boy am I judgemental, and for some reason I just can't stop thinking things like "what was she thinking wearing that?" it even happens at church. Ha sunday I the speaker had her sister sing a song with her and I was thinking "I thought we were only suppose to sing hymns in sacrament meeting" rather than focusing on what was being said I was so judgemental and it hurt me. In the fact that I left sacrament meeting not feeling like I should. Uplifted and enlightened.

I see judgement every where I go. I have been judged myself my whole life I am sure and I think it makes me afraid to be myself. To say or do the things I like. And now that I think about it I feel aweful for doing the exact same thing to others. Why are we so focused on everyone elses flaws and not on our strengths? Why are we so focused on whats wrong and not what we are doing right?

Its funny that my mind goes blank the min. I decide to write it all down. Im just so annoyed with all the negative things that are being said and done? We aren't going to have better lives and a better world till we start trying to see it thru others eyes. I have tried to do this alot in the path. And it really helps me to not get so angry. We all have reasons for the things we do. That is not to excuse the bad behavior. But I truely beleive that if we stop pointing fingers and start looking at our selves that is where the greatest changes occur. I have said time and again that you cant change someone else. The only person you can change is yourself. (this being said to some girl at work that is mad about something that has happened to her).

Where has compasion gone? I know its out there and I know that there are people all over the world serving others. Im just not seeing it from where I am. I see anger, revenge, hate, judgement, self pity, selfishness, pride, lack of concern for others, distrust, dishonesty, and the list goes on!

Just a reminder to myself that when I am annoyed with life and others in it to look from a different perspective. I also know I haven't been the best of person. So to all those who I have hurt I am sorry. I am trying to be a better person, and to be honest I do a pretty bad job at it. But I will continue to try and I will need to be reminded again and again and again I am sure.

I know this was probably boring. It wasn't writen well at all its just some of my random thoughts that maybe I should keep to myself and then again maybe not.