What the World Wants!

Isn't this what every celebrity wants to looks like? That is what a lot of girls would think and they seriously try to make themselves look like that and sacrifice so much by doing so. I would say the #1 sacrifice is their happiness. I personally think it would be sooooo hard to do this to myself. I like food! Like I said in my last friday weight post, food is a comfort to me. However some people get to the point where the lack of food is a comfort to them. Why is the world doing this to people. Ok so maybe they aren't SUPER thin like this Barbie but they are always in search for more. MORE MORE MORE MORE! and for some reason its always STUFF! Im sorry to tell the world this but STUFF does not bring you that satisfying inner peace.

From my years of searching for happiness (isn't that what we all are looking for?) I didn't find it in toys, cars, not even food. This morning I have been thinking of the things that makes me happiest. And when in my life I have been truely happy. Oddly enough or not I would say the time I was happy for the longest amount of time was my mission. I know all return missionaries would tell you that. I was thinking of why that is? Well because I wasn't thinking of myself most of the time. I was centering my life around what God would have me do. And doesn't He truely know what is best for each and everyone of us? ( I forget that ALOT) So here I was on my mission in a strange world having to face my anxiety and fears. Something I couldn't ever really do on my own. I had to talk to complete strangers (well they were strangers to me). And convey to them what made me happy. I found that worked the best. At first I was so horrible at it. And let me tell you had had some pretty good lows on my mission to. But until Feb. 9th, 2007 and Feb 2nd, 2008 I would have told you it was the best and most happy time in my life. Its always good to be out serving other people and not thinking of yourself to much.

I think that is one thing I hate about the world. EVERYONE is looking out for number 1. And you see it EVERYWHERE! Where you work, the grocery store (does anybody have any common curtesy (sp?) any more. AT very least say thank you and maybe just maybe smile? You see it in the television programs you watch. On a popular cartoon tv show it sings "It seems today, that all you see is violence in movies, and sex on tv." And then it goes ahead and shows this same degrading stuff. Don't get me wrong I think that some of the jokes it makes are funny and I find alot of it entertaining. But I find myself having to turn it off more often than not. And why is that cause the makers are selfish and making what sells. ( I know this part is americas fault for buying it)

Anyways back to what makes me happy. Truly happy not that momentary quickly passing joy that comes from eating a hundred grand candy bar :)! But the kind that can last forever. Feb 9th was one of the most happy days of my life. It was so amazing! LOVE-can bring people so much joy in so many different ways.

For one you are serving and thinking of some one else. Sometimes we forget that and totally think of our selves (I know I have) thankfully marriage is a work in progress. All I know is one of my favorite things to do that makes me oh so happy is when I have a suprise for Jordan. He has been such a great support to me over the past year and some. He listens to me and tries oh so very hard to make me happy. Little does he know that him just being married to me makes me the happiest I have ever been. I can't believe how much I love him more today than that day there at the temple.

And then there is being married to him for eternity. As Jordan says it we only have eternity and then we will have to renegotiate our contract. (Good thing eternity is FOREVER! hahaha Im the winner in this deal Jordan) So in thinking about the fact that I love him more now and am more happy now because of it just think of how happy I will be when we get half way thru eternity? (Is that even possible?)

And then there was Feb 2nd, 2008 12 something in the middle of the night. Just look at that smile if that doesn't make you happy I don't know what will. He is becoming such a character and I am so happy and thankful that I get to see it all. It just makes me want to have more so I can be even more happy. Ooooppps there is the worlds thinking. Ok not really. This idea of more children should be put in the Lords perspective and then I think you will be even more happy when you do it that way. I imagine Jess had no idea what God had planned for her a few months before she found out she was pregnant. And Im pretty sure she is even more happy with murphy (maybe a little over whelmed) but happy too. Just yesterday I was playing with Pj in his Jumperoo (thanks Jess, Janet, Jenny , and Aunt Kaye) I coldn't stop looking at him. He was trying to figure it out and (side note: I think he knows how to turn on the toy he just doesn't have the strenght) I can't believe how much happiness he has brought to Jordan and my life.

Ok bringing this long thought process to a close. That Barbie does not look happy. (she looks pretty ill to me) I want to center my life around choosing to be happy. Looking for oppertunities to serve others and putting my life in line for what God wants for me. I need to start relying on him more. After all he does know what will make me the most happy.

Ok now time for the stats: weight today 178 totaly weight loss for the week +1! But I sure did have fun gaining that lb. hehehehe I WILL do better next week. I blame it on the fact that this is my last week on maternity leave. Maybe if I focus on what I eat and working out it will make going back to work a little easier? We will see. Until next week. (for the weightloss program anyway)

What makes you (truely) happy?????????????????????????